and on I carry...

It's been said that time heals all wounds. While I've often been the giver of such advice, it's sometimes hard to accept it. Because the wounds are still there. I miss my friend. I miss seeing her posts on facebook. I miss her texts and most of all, I miss knowing I had someone to shoot the breeze with, gab about silly topics and someone I could vent to the way only girls can vent.

BUT...

I am carrying on. I've not blogged in nearly a month, thinking I done something wrong and that blogging would be too much fun for someone who had done the unthinkable... But I wasn't wrong. I didn't do anything out of order and in the great scheme of things, I am me... could you imagine the world if there were two of me?

Since the great fall-out, I have applied for grants, scholarships and challenges are far as the web can find to help fund my education. I miss school so much. I can't believe I am wishing the summer away so that fall can get here. That is so sad, right? NO! I am constantly encouraged to go back for a number of reasons, but the two most important... 1.) It's right for me and 2.) I've seen stupid and I don't want to be placed in that category. Now, before anyone trips over that statement, I'm not saying that if you don't go to school, you're stupid. I'm simply saying that in 'hickville', AR, you see you fair share of the less educated and my heart bleeds for them.

So I will be a light... *hums* this little light of mine... I'm gonna let it shine...  for all the world to follow. Not that I'm Christ, but rather, I'm a good example to follow. I am commended at work every day by people who say, "You are so pleasant", "It's nice to see a smiling face", "Thank goodness you're working, that other girl is not nice"... Warms my heart and soul that I can be a smiling, pleasant, happy person for others to see. 

No, I will not continue to be down. I will share my smile with the world. A friend on Facebook is nearly always posting such uplifting and spiritual posts, her comments on a day to day basis have helped me to realize (along with my husbands perseverance) that I am a good person and when I feel at my lowest, God is lifting ME up.

Thank you Dani, for your continuous words of encouragement. I haven't commented on your posts, but know this, you are planting a seed and watering it fervently.

Until tomorrow,
LaVonda